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[vinodejerez]

I had another nightmare last night... One of those ones where you wake up right before you die.

I've had a lot of nightmares since making friends with assassins and terrorists finding out my family is made of terrible people joining the community. I wonder if that's normal.

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[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

...I don't think I'm running away from it. Much.

[theotokos.livejournal.com]

But we're all guilty of avoiding an issue, one time in our life. Nothing unusual.

[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

The issue's pretty difficult, too. I don't really know what to do about it.

[theotokos.livejournal.com]

I... I'm not in the position to pry. But if it's bothering you that much, you should be more vocal about it.

[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

...A lot of the people I know and like are bad people. A lot.

[theotokos.livejournal.com]

...

Guilty conscious?

[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

Am I supposed to stop liking them? They've never done anything to me...

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[theotokos.livejournal.com]

You know, someone very close to me did something absolutely terrible. And they continue to do horrible things to others.

While I cannot forgive them, it's hard. Because part of me still loves them.

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[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

I get it. It's not just me who has trouble with this. It's really hard.

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[theotokos.livejournal.com]

It's not and it shouldn't be that way.

Which is why I rather not see you... go through it.

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[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

I love them a lot.

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[theotokos.livejournal.com]

I know. I know that feeling, but you can't support them on everything.

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[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

I'm not going to help. I just want to be able to still live with them and talk to them like I like them.

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[theotokos.livejournal.com]

... Better hope they don't become too absorbed in it.

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[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I hope so.

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[theotokos.livejournal.com]

I just-

I don't want to see anyone else going through the same thing I went. Just don't be afraid to assert yourself to them. Regardless if they're loved ones. You have to make sure that they are still connected to you, outside of their work. Otherwise, you won't make waves with them.

And there's nothing worse than that.

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[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

...Got it. I won't let anything happen.

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[theotokos.livejournal.com]

...

Just as long as you're careful.

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[vinodejerez.livejournal.com]

I will be. Promise.